mur-c-mi

"write if you get work"

this is what my friend and pastor, Dan always says as a cheeky salutation when people leave his house. either that or "drive wreck-less". well, after almost eight weeks i've found a job. i'm now working in production at Lensbabies where i am a part of the assembly team for the 2.0 and 3G lenses which yields wonders like these shots taken by Craig Strong, the owner and designer if you go to the Lensbabies website go to the "using" to see what its about. i guess i hadn't really realized how long it has been until i counted the days just now. in my head it's been five weeks or so.

this has been a hard season. yesterday, when i got the call to start today, a thot flashed thru my head "what have you done with all this time off - there are still house projects that only i can do which didn't get done." but, then i thot "no" - i've tried my best to stay employed in ways that used my gifts and time even tho i wasn't being "gainfully employed." so, amidst daily pouring over adds posting job openings, sending out resumes everyday, interveiws, and staying involved at the DHOP I also got to do things like take friends to the dentist, sit/knit with Renee at the hospital, and help a friend while her child care stuff got ironed out. i did get to go to London too. i was laid off the week before, but when i left i had three very solid leads with friends who said they had work for me. so i left the country able to relax a little. within a week of my return each of the doors were quickly closed. it is no fun sitting thru interviews being asked "so why do you want to work for us?" how do you answer truthfully when what i want to do is ministry and to be working somehow full time for the Portland House of Prayer. but, recently i've become more and more convinced that in the early church they had such a commitment to "orphans and widows" that if money got short it was then that Paul took up tent making. so, i guess i shouldn't feel stress too much about not being full-time ministry when the orphans of our city and world for that matter go without.

at the same times, it's been hard not to feel humiliated when i see that my resume does not appear that marketable because i've really sought to set ministry first all these years. my resume hardly reflects my strengths or experiences. but, i guess there are plenty of people in the city who are juggling running ministries and working full-time on top of having families. that's a lot. so i guess that is the season for the DHOP right now. both renee and i are finding the Lord's provision thru other forms of work.

honestly, i think thru this whole time a groan in my heart has in increased for a new manifestation of the DHOP to unfold. it almost seems like we're that caterpillar in hidden-ness being transformed into something completely different than what it started out as. the interesting thing is i'm told the caterpillar basically becomes gelatinous and literally transformed into the butterfly (i'll have to google that to verify this). pretty gruesome, but truly wondrous. i trust what the Lord is doing in us and in the city.

so in the mean time i'll be putting together thousands of these funky lenses and getting a really good Christmas list going:
Scott - Lensbaby
Dad & Mom - Lensbaby
Sheena - Lensbaby oops it actually won't work for your camera :-(
Xea - Lensbaby
Pete - Lensbaby
Anna - Lensbaby

and so forth .....

actually, these lensbabys are quite expensive and i'm not one to be absconding a lens here and there so i don't know if this christmas list is really going to happen.

posted by kt @ 10/24/2006 09:26:00 PM