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a wee bit overwhelmed

Hey gang - yah its me. miss kt
so i'm checking in, catching up, dropping a line, whatever it might be considered in www-land.
i've been feeling a tad overwhelmed lately. i'm trying to know what is next. there are some areas that are seeming less hazy, but facing some of the decisions i have i'm working at not only feeling overwhelmed and indecisive.

the DHOP is transitioning into Livingstones. i believe this is a good thing - i believe this is a God -thing as well. i'm excited about this. involvement for all involved at this point is really more or less as a "volunteer". so like many i know i need to find work that will sustain my living expenses so that i can afford to do what i love. artists and many musicians face this all the time. they have day jobs and then they have their art. so, employment and future viable employment is taking up lots of my brain space.

mercy, justice and the poor are at the center of the shift for the DHOP/Livingstones and many other prayer ministries around the globe. but, what does that look like? Darfur is ablaze with nightmare-ish human atrocity, really most of the African interior is in turmoil and there is much speculation as to the involvement of American multi-national companies. there is the sex trafficking of women & children worldwide. recently, i watched a few beautiful films two of which were about India. one is called "water" and the other, a documentary called "Born into Brothels" each depicting the plight of women who either were widowed or have no means to support themselves. we can't for get Iraq........

on top of all this, the debate over migrant workers is in the news a great deal. we have lots of migrant camps around here due to the fruit industries in this region. the farmers are all saying Americans won't work for them "we need the migrants - legal or not". so basically a huge part of our economy pivots on this sub-class of people. sure there's more and more watch dog groups overseeing and making sure farmers are keeping to standard, but really. they are not able to keep the uncles or fathers of many adolescent girls from being brought to the migrant worker's camps each evening to "service" the workers at night. how different is that than Thailand or India? yes, these issues have been known to man since the dawn of time. but, being that there are upwards of 6 billion humans on the planet the magnitude is so much greater.

clearly this human suffering is impacting the people who are actually born. with more people also comes more abortions too. millions of babies have been aborted since 1973, that's way more than any of the US fatalities in all the US wars fought combined. the average woman in Russia has had 10 abortions - that's the average! that's not even counting China. on a side note - ironically this week the Supreme court made way for a woman in China to seek refugee asylum here if she were being forced to have an abortion. that is amazing and i'm glad for it, but it seems a bit schizophrenic.
what is the problem? we don't value human life bottom-line. we either can't afford to or we are taught not to due to racism or religious doctrine.

meanwhile,....... many of my friends struggle to maintain their ability to make payments on their mortgages because decent paying jobs are hard to come by even with a decent education. some marriages are on the rocks and a few friends are struggling with major life issues on verge of depression. i think i need to stop here.

I AM THANKFUL.
i'm thankful for health, for family, for friends, and for seeing God break into situations i didn't think i'd see Him in. it gives me gives me faith. hopefully, a comment about thankfulness will keep this post from being a truly miserable post. but, its where my head is. i'm not so much depressed, rather as i said - overwhelmed.

ps - sorry if there are lots of typos. i didn't proof this too well. i just wanted to post it.

posted by kt @ 6/10/2007 10:32:00 AM